When I first started reading Maria Montessori's works and other books about her method when Joseph was still a baby, I was both compelled by them and equally sure that I was too disorganized and undisciplined to implement them with our children. I sill mostly think that.
But.
My increasing conviction that Montessori really knew what she was talking about as well as seeing how Joseph responded to a Montessori style environment in the
atrium at our parish, finally let me to order a few basic materials and take a stab at some presentations this year. And, well, it didn't look anything like
MBT's house.
So as I've been thinking about this year and what we want to do moving forward, I felt quite torn about whether to attempt continue my lame attempt at Montessori homeschooling. I certainly wanted to, but I also understand the arguments made by Montessori purists that all the details matter and in some cases a half-assed attempt at Montessori is perhaps worse than no attempt.
In one of my more optimistic moment, I ordered
a set of albums. And while I heard from many Montessorians and thought I understood that materials in themselves are not really the point, in reading the theory album it finally clicked for me that I have been approaching the question from the wrong perspective. While it's true that there is a deep connection between the specifics of the classroom prepared environment and the philosophy behind them and you can't just go in and mix it up without upsetting that connection, that doesn't mean the Montessori classroom is the
only expression of the philosophy. It just means you need to know what you are doing!
I am right to judge that I do not have the stuff mentioning abilities to stay on top of a classroom full of Montessori materials nor would doing so mesh well with the principles of simplicity and uncluttered-ness I am trying to implement in the rest of our home life. But rather than focus on a specific outcome as seen in a Montessori classroom, I need to immerse myself in the philosophy and observations underlying the specific materials and presentations. I think that a deep understanding of what is going on will allow me to make carefully considered judgments about which materials to invest in, as well as how to meet our children's needs within the other the confines of our family's style and mission. I have to accept this will be a long term project, one in which I will certainly be learning by trial and error. My goal is not to be completist about my albums but to understand the purpose behind every presentation so that I can ensure we are addressing all of our children's needs whether through "real" Montessori materials or by other means.
Our new home also has space for a dedicated school room, which I think will make a huge difference in making Montessori manageable for me. Lucy turns three in October, so I'll be focusing on practical life and sensorial with her, while moving Joseph along in language and math.